Mmmm Imogen Heap is such an intriguing band. I love this song 'Have You Got It In You?"

In other news, my hairs down to my shoulders!! Hope that makes you happy... effing dictator! <3

Well that is all.

Boredness. I think i'll dye my hair to blue again... that hair grow tonic works fairly well. At least my hairs gotten to my chin now.

Well I've tried calling Kirito's number, either he gave me a fake number or he's one busy man. I never seem to catch him at his phone and once a voicemail picks up, I hang up. So how am I supposed to make new friends and set up dates, if the people I am supposed to be meeting, are never there? Gah, I'm pouting and acting like a baby... oh well ...I want attention dammit.

I just hate being alone. Yes, I like my solitude, but i'd also like someone to hang out with from time to time. Someone to laugh with and maybe cry with. To go on date's with, like the rest of the world seems able to do easily.

I'm not your typical beauty that everyone is drawn to in this industry, but isn't there someone willing to look beyond the monsterous metal and paint visage I put on and see me? And like me? Is everyone more interested in looks and social status, that they can't see themselves dating or being friends to a 'monster' ... I miss Daishi and Aya and Miya.

Sorry for ranting... but sometimes I just need to get things off my chest.

Well, it's been a while since i've seen or heard from him... so... I guess I need to move on. Heh... I really like him though. I just.. don't know what to do. I know he isn't meaning to ignore me, as tlease, I don't think he is. But the fact is... I am ignored and I am... so... lonely.

I want someone to hang out with and to talk to. Someone to hold onto and be held by... I guess I want affection. Maybe... maybe I just need to move on, it's not like we were lovers at all, we just flirted and planned to be more, but never got to.

Well, I guess I'm on the market again. So... anyone want to play 'Freak the homophobes' with me?

It's been interesting.. waiting on someone to spend more time with me. I've got to be patient, got to keep hanging on.

^__~

I think he's worth it.